::Sarangey::

Cinta aku ,

Cinta aku pada cintaku tidak pernah terpadam malah tidak pernah pudar walau sesaat.
Sejauh mana aku dan cinta aku, kasih sayangku tidak pernah luntur.
Aku hanya mengharapkan cinta aku dalam keadaan sihat..
Tidak mampu aku bayangkan kehilangan cinta aku..
Lemah lutut rasanya bila memikirkannya.

Cinta aku,

Kita seolah-olah bercinta setiap hari..
Jarak tidak menjadi batu penghalang untuk kita bercinta.
Cintaku selalu menghubungi aku..begitu jua aku..
Walaupun kami dipisahkan lautan yang luas
Namun semua ini tidak membantutkan aku untuk terus dekat bersama cintaku

Cinta aku,

Terima kasih kerana selalu berada disisiku..
Tidak kira hujan atau kemarau cinta aku tetap teguh bersamaku..
Ya ALLAH rahmatilah cinta aku ini..
Tanpa cinta aku ini aku tidak kuat untuk meneruskan kehidupan yang penuh onak dan duri..
Ya ALLAH berikanlah kesihatan kepada cinta aku ini..
Sesungguhnya aku amat mencintai cinta aku…
Jika cinta aku tidak wujud maka tidak mungkin untuk aku wujud di dunia ini…

My Hope~

Dear Allah ,

This world is getting crazier everyday..
I hope You’ll hear me out now as I stop and pray..
Everybody’s searching for an easy solution.
They can’t see beyond, the selfish world they’re living in.
Your words of love get lost , in all confusion.
But I still believe in You….
I have always been a dreamer..
Followed vision of my own
I believe in happy ending though I only knew it few..
Sometimes all the world can seem so friendless
And the road ahead so endless
And the dream so far away…
Sometimes when I’m almost surrender
And I stop and I remember , I have You to save my day…


Dear Allah ,

I know You’re disappointed in what we’ve done.
People take Your words and twisted them around.
I know You cant be happy with what is going on.
They rather blind themselves with their own pride.
Never think wisely..
How shameless they are as Your slaves..???
Can’t they see the truth ???
The truth that somehow hidden to whom partially blind and deaf..
Do help me out dear God..
I’m drowning in my own stupid mistakes.
I regret
But it seem everything is too late..
Time is precious and we can’t turn back the clock..
There’s only 1 solution left for me….
I have to swallow those stupid mistakes of mine and face the future bravely..

Malignant

Malignant. The name given to any doctor that seem to be very strict or 'kerek' in his/her own way. And today, we've got one. It was scary okay. This is our second time with him. The first one was on 31 January 2010, Sunday. As there are still two weeks for us in KAUH, we are looking forward to meet him again.

Okay lets forget about the doctor for a while. I'm not going to write or complain about him okay. It's the case that we discussed with him the other day that I would like to concentrate on.

It was about an old man complaining of suprapubic pain. I don't remember all of the details but the significant symptoms associated with the chief complaint are haemetemesis, melena and weight loss.

Haematemesis: Vomiting of blood
Melena: The passage of black, tarry stools composed largely of blood that has been acted on by gastric juices, indicative of bleeding in the upper digestive tract

During discussion..
This could be an upper gastrointestinal tract (GI) bleeding, which has several causes itself or it could also be from other pathology.
After an hour and a half of discussing, we end up diagnosing the patient as having either gastric cancer or colon cancer. But at that time, he was still under investigation.

Today, the doctor told us that the old man has died. He died the next day after the day we discussed his case. It was rather shocking and sad. We talked to and examined him just a day before his death. And more suprisingly, he did not suffer any cancer, neither gastric nor colon. He actually suffered from aorto-duodenal fistula. Our big mistake is that we didn't ask for any previous surgery, which is related to the pathology.

Aorto-duodenal fistula can be caused by previous reconstructive surgeries such as thromboendarterectomy or grafting of the abdominal aorta and patient may present with symptoms and signs GI haemorrhage. It's a rare disease.

It's true that what common is common, but what rare is also very important.

Kau begitu Sempurna

"Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku
akan slalu memujamu.."







Mudahkan manusia menyimpulkan seseorang itu sebagai sempurna? Cukup hanya dengan sekali dua pandang, cukup hanya dengan sepatah dua bersembang.
Tapi bukan salah manusia aku fikir. Dah memang keupayaan manusia untuk menafsir terbatas.

Mata hanya dapat melihat yang kasar, bukan yang halus.
Telinga hanya dapat mendengar yang dari mulut, bukan yang dari hati.
Hidung hanya dapat menghidu yang ada bau, bukan yang tidak berbau.
Mulut hanya dapat berkata apa yang hendak dikata, bukan yang sepatut dikata.
Akal hanya dapat memikirkan apa yang jelas dan nyata, bukan apa yang ghaib.
Hati yang sepatutnya digunakan untuk memahami, belum pasti cukup memahami.

Tanpa nikmat dan hidayah dariNya, sudah pasti kita lebih dahsyat dari kurang sempurna.


P/s: Akhirnya, Tuhan juga yang Maha Sempurna.

.emotionless.

Have you ever felt isolated,

even with others all around you?

Have you ever felt something's wrong,
when nothing's wrong?

Have you ever felt like no one on earth could possibly understand what you're feeling?

And,
Have you ever hope for the emotions..,
the anger, the hatred,the pain,the hurt, the happiness,and even the love..
to be gone,
so that you wouldn't miss someone,
you wouldn't cry so much,
you wouldn't hurt for something,
and you wouldn't regret for anything?

Have you ever been that emotionless...

well, i do have this kind of 'have you ever things' in my mind,

asking a friend of mine this evening about "kenapa kita ade perasaan?"
and shortly she replied "sebab Dia dah kurniakan kat kita",
[ even jawapan tak memuaskan, and i was expecting more than just this unelaborated answer ;p ]
but tu dah cukup to make me things that it's true, without those kind of feelings, there's no our so-called life. Perasaan tu yang 'menghidupkan' kita, yang menjadikan hari2 kita.
It is something controllable, cuma cara kita menzahirkannya, mungkin berbeza.

So, colour your emotions and live your life to the fullest, for there's only one life to live. ^_^